Chapter Text 章节文本 炳官站在练习室的中央，汗水顺着他的脸颊滑落。他的呼吸急促，但眼神依然坚定。晙喜走过来，递给他一瓶水。 “你今天真的很努力，”晙喜说，语气中带着赞赏。 炳官接过水瓶，微笑着点了点头。“谢谢，队长。我只是想确保我们在下次演出时表现得最好。” 晙喜拍了拍他的肩膀。“我们一定会的。你已经做得很好了。” 练习室的门突然打开，其他成员也陆续走了进来。大家都显得有些疲惫，但脸上却洋溢着兴奋的笑容。 “大家都准备好了吗？”晙喜问道，声音中充满了期待。 “当然！”所有人异口同声地回答。 炳官看着他的队友们，心中充满了感激和自豪。他知道，无论前方的道路多么艰难，他们都会一起面对，一起克服。 “那我们开始吧！”晙喜大声宣布。 音乐响起，所有人都投入到舞蹈中。每一个动作都充满了力量和激情，仿佛他们的心跳与音乐的节奏融为一体。 这是他们的梦想，他们的舞台，他们的生活。而他们，将会一直走下去
Park Junhee had always been a mystery. The boy with the blue dyed hair who quietly sat in the back of the room and aced all of his classes except for music class in which — very much to the annoyance of their teacher — he never participated in singing even once.
朴晙喜一直是个谜。那个染着蓝色头发的男孩，总是安静地坐在教室后面，除了音乐课之外，他所有的课程都拿到了高分——这让他们的老师非常恼火，因为他从未在音乐课上唱过一次歌。
He seemed to not have any friends in school either. In many ways, he reminded Byeongkwan of himself but at the same time there was an energy surrounding him which intimidated Byeongkwan too much to ever really try to get close to him.
他在学校似乎也没有任何朋友。在很多方面，他让炳官想起了自己，但同时他周围的那种气场又让炳官感到太过害怕，以至于从未真正尝试接近他。
Instead they were secret allies. They both lived in the same neighbourhood by the small lake which was why they often walked to school together but despite that, they never really talked. At lunch, too, they ate together in silence —Byeongkwan occasionally rambling about whatever came to his mind — and school projects usually got handled over text messages.
相反，他们是秘密盟友。他们都住在小湖边的同一个社区，这就是为什么他们经常一起走路上学，但尽管如此，他们从未真正交谈过。午餐时，他们也默默地一起吃饭——炳官偶尔会喋喋不休地谈论他想到的任何事情——而学校的项目通常通过短信处理。
It was a weird alliance but Byeongkwan was glad about it. All of his friends went to the school in the other part of town and it was better to eat and walk in silence than alone. And yes, perhaps his heart did flutter a tiny bit whenever Junhee smiled at him as a greeting, his blue curls casting shadows over his beautiful face which glowed in the morning sun.
这是一个奇怪的联盟，但炳官对此感到高兴。他所有的朋友都去了镇上的另一所学校，与其独自一人吃饭和散步，不如在沉默中一起。是的，也许每当晙喜微笑着向他打招呼时，他的心确实会微微颤动，晙喜的蓝色卷发在晨光中投下阴影，使他美丽的脸庞熠熠生辉。
Park Junhee was a mystery and Byeongkwan had always been weirdly intrigued by everything that appeared unsolvable.
朴晙喜是个谜，而炳官总是对一切看似无法解决的事情有着奇怪的兴趣。
Maybe that was what had made him give in a bit too fast, when his mother asked him to get some things at the convenient store. After all, it belonged to Junhee’s mother and the thought of seeing him on a Friday evening let Byeongkwan’s step bounce more than usual. He didn’t have a crush on Park Junhee… He just liked looking at pretty people’s faces… Everybody did, right?
也许正是因为这个原因，当他妈妈让他去便利店买些东西时，他才会答应得那么快。毕竟，那家店是晙喜的妈妈开的，想到能在周五晚上见到他，让炳官的步伐比平时更轻快。他并没有暗恋朴晙喜……他只是喜欢看漂亮的脸……每个人都是这样的，对吧？
A grocery bag swinging in his hand, he made his way down the street, greeting everybody he walked past. It was important to keep up a friendly image in a small town like this. People loved to talk and they cared too much about others’ private businesses. Well, nothing much ever happened here, so Byeongkwan couldn’t really blame them. He, too, tended to be a bit too curious for his own good sometimes.
手里提着一个购物袋，他沿着街道走着，向每一个路过的人打招呼。在这样的小镇上，保持友好的形象是很重要的。人们喜欢聊天，也太关心别人的私事了。嗯，这里从来没发生过什么大事，所以炳官也不能真的责怪他们。他自己有时候也会对别人的事过于好奇。
It was a nice late afternoon, the cold announcing the quickly approaching winter. Byeongkwan shivered at that thought, burying himself in his oversized, pink hoodie. He really should have brought a jacket but luckily the store wasn’t far away from his house.
这是一个美好的傍晚，寒冷预示着冬天的迅速到来。炳官想到这里不禁打了个寒颤，把自己埋在他那件过大的粉色连帽衫里。他真的应该带一件夹克，但幸运的是，商店离他家不远。
Finally, he reached it, walking through the door with a bright smile while the ancient bell announced his arrival.
终于，他到达了那里，带着灿烂的笑容走进门，古老的铃铛宣布了他的到来。
“Good evening!” “晚上好！”
The small woman behind the counter returned his smile warmly. “Good evening Byeongkwan. You seem to be in a very good mood today. Are you here to see Junhee?” Byeongkwan hastily shook his head, his cheeks heating up but he still couldn’t resist glancing around searchingly. Junhee was nowhere to be seen. Immediately his mood dampened.
柜台后面的小个子女人温暖地回以微笑。“晚上好，炳官。你今天看起来心情很好。你是来找晙喜的吗？”炳官急忙摇头，脸颊发烫，但他还是忍不住四处张望。晙喜不见踪影。他的心情立刻黯淡下来。
“No, no… I’m just here to get a couple of things for dinner...”
“不，不……我只是来买几样晚餐的东西……”
“Ahh… Well, Junhee went out for a bit but if you wait, you might be able to see him too.” The color on Byeongkwan’s face darkened and he hastily disappeared in an aisle. Junhee probably wouldn’t be too happy about finding him here. Byeongkwan didn’t want to come off as if he was attempting to push himself into Junhee’s private life or even worse; as if he was interested in him. He didn’t have a crush on him! And they weren’t friends either… Not really.
“啊…嗯，晙喜出去了一会儿，但如果你等一下，你可能也能见到他。”炳官的脸色暗了下来，他匆忙消失在一个过道里。晙喜可能不会太高兴在这里发现他。炳官不想让人觉得他在试图闯入晙喜的私人生活，或者更糟糕的是，让人觉得他对晙喜有兴趣。他对晙喜没有好感！他们也不是朋友…真的不是。
Slowly Byeongkwan walked through the small store, adding tomatoes and some new salt to his basket as well as sneaking in a chocolate bar. Hopefully his mother wouldn’t notice. Once he was done, he returned to Mrs. Park to pay, still not meeting her eyes as if she was able to read his thoughts otherwise. She scanned the items with careful, trained movements before helping him to put them into his bag.
炳官慢慢地走过小店，往篮子里加了西红柿和一些新盐，还偷偷放了一块巧克力。希望他妈妈不会注意到。一切搞定后，他回到朴女士那里付款，仍然不敢看她的眼睛，仿佛她能读懂他的想法。她用熟练的动作仔细扫描了物品，然后帮他把它们放进袋子里。
“You know...” She eventually spoke up, while taking out the change, “Junhee speaks about you quite a lot. I’m really glad he finally found a friend like you. It’s not easy for him usually...” Her words caught Byeongkwan by surprise and he finally met her gaze with wide eyes.
“你知道吗...” 她终于开口了，同时拿出零钱，“晙喜经常提到你。我真的很高兴他终于找到了像你这样的朋友。对他来说，这通常不容易...” 她的话让炳官感到惊讶，他终于睁大眼睛与她对视。
“He… he talks about me?” It escaped his lips and Mrs. Park nodded, an amused expression on her face.
“他……他谈到我吗？”他脱口而出，朴夫人点了点头，脸上带着一丝愉悦的表情。
“All the time. Byeongkwan showed me this cool game on his phone today… Byeongkwan held a really interesting presentation… It’s always Byeongkwan this and Byeongkwan that at dinner.” She laughed, it being full of fondness, while Byeongkwan couldn’t do anything else than stare at her in astonishment. “But you know how he is… Junhee just loves to talk.” This was news to him. Were they really talking about the same Park Junhee who hardly ever got out a word and seemed to be more invested in his books than whatever Byeongkwan was telling him?
“总是这样。炳官今天在他手机上给我看了一个很酷的游戏……炳官做了一个非常有趣的演讲……晚餐时总是炳官这个炳官那个。”她笑了，充满了温情，而炳官只能惊讶地盯着她。“但你知道他是怎样的人……晙喜就是喜欢说话。”这对他来说是个新消息。他们真的在谈论同一个几乎从不说话、似乎对书本比炳官告诉他的任何事情都更感兴趣的朴晙喜吗？
“Ahh… yeah...” He forced himself to laugh. “That’s just how he is.” They smiled at each other one last time, before he turned around and hastily left the store. What a strange conversation....
“啊…是啊...” 他强迫自己笑了笑。“他就是那样的人。”他们最后一次相视而笑，然后他转身匆匆离开了商店。真是奇怪的对话……
Still deep in thought, Byeongkwan unwrapped the chocolate bar and took a big bite while he went on his way home. The streets were calm and he could see the sun setting behind the trees around the lake. It was the beginning of winter so there shouldn’t be many people at the shore at this time of the day and before he could really think about it, Byeongkwan had taken the path down to the water instead of towards the main street.
炳官还在沉思中，他拆开巧克力棒，咬了一大口，继续往家走。街道很安静，他能看到太阳在湖边的树后面落下。现在是冬天的开始，这个时间湖边不应该有很多人。在他还没真正考虑清楚之前，炳官已经走上了通往水边的小路，而不是朝主街走去。
He didn’t feel like going through another round of greeting and talking to neighbours and the path along the lake would only take him a couple of minutes longer to get home than the main road.
他不想再经历一轮问候和与邻居交谈，沿着湖边的小路回家只会比走主路多花几分钟。
However, not much later, he realised a disadvantage this path brought along; the sun was setting and under the trees it was getting dark faster. He really didn’t like the dark and therefore Byeongkwan sped up his steps, exhaling relieved, when he finally reached the lake and found the path there to still be lighter. Then he looked up and gasped.
然而，不久之后，他意识到这条路带来的一个缺点；太阳正在下山，树下天黑得更快。他真的不喜欢黑暗，因此炳官加快了脚步，当他终于到达湖边并发现那里的路仍然比较亮时，他松了一口气。然后他抬头看了一眼，倒吸了一口气。
Forgotten were all his concerns, once his eyes fell on the sunset mirroring in the water so that the lake looked like it was filled with liquid gold. It was beautiful and Byeongkwan stared at it in awe for a couple of seconds, before the noises of water splashing made him turn his head startled. Except for him, there was nobody on the path, but not far to his left, hidden by some bushes, he could make out a person that was currently wading into the lake.
一旦他的目光落在倒映在水中的夕阳上，他所有的担忧都被遗忘了，湖面看起来像是充满了液态金。那景象太美了，炳官惊叹地盯着看了几秒钟，直到水花溅起的声音让他惊讶地转过头。除了他，路上没有其他人，但在他左边不远处，被一些灌木丛遮住的地方，他可以辨认出一个人正涉水进入湖中。
Byeongkwan frowned confused, curiosity leading him to walk closer. He knew that some people believed in cold water helping to strengthen their immune system but the thought of swimming despite a strong wind tousling his hair, made Byeongkwan hug his own body. Cold...
炳官困惑地皱起眉头，好奇心驱使他走近一些。他知道有些人相信冷水有助于增强免疫系统，但想到在强风吹乱他头发的情况下游泳，炳官不禁抱紧了自己的身体。好冷...
He stepped even closer, really not wanting to act like some kind of stalker but something about the person’s figure simply drew him in. It looked weirdly familiar and somewhere in his mind Byeongkwan had probably known all along who he was watching, even before he carefully peered around the bush and froze in surprise.
他又走近了一步，真的不想表现得像个跟踪狂，但那个人的身影就是吸引了他。那身影看起来奇怪地熟悉，在炳官的脑海里，他可能早就知道自己在看谁了，即使在他小心翼翼地绕过灌木丛，惊讶地愣住之前。
Park Junhee was currently standing in the lake, the water reaching to his hip while he acted so casual about it as if it was noon on a hot summer day instead of the beginning of winter and evening at that. However, Byeongkwan didn’t have time to focus on that fact for much longer since his eyes got stuck on Junhee’s bare upper body, admiring the way his skin was glowing golden in the remaining sunlight, before that information finally reached his brain and he hastily closed his eyes.
朴晙喜正站在湖中，水位到他的臀部，而他表现得如此随意，仿佛这是炎热夏日的正午，而不是初冬的傍晚。然而，炳官没有时间再多关注这一事实，因为他的目光被晙喜裸露的上半身吸引住了，欣赏着他的皮肤在余晖中闪耀着金色的光芒，直到这些信息最终传达到他的脑海，他才匆忙闭上眼睛。
What the hell was he doing right now? Hiding behind a bush and watching a half naked guy which he swore to not have a crush on but who’s appearance made his heart race unhealthy in his chest... Byeongkwan was seriously going insane and the best solution was to turn around and go home. That thought in mind and determined to do so, he moved his feet, his eyes still securely closed shut, only to halt and rip them open again in surprise, when he heard another loud splashing sound.
他现在到底在干什么？躲在灌木丛后面，盯着一个半裸的家伙看，虽然他发誓自己不会对那个人有好感，但那人的外貌却让他的心脏在胸腔里不健康地狂跳……炳官真的快要疯了，最好的解决办法就是转身回家。怀着这个想法，并决心这么做，他移动了脚步，眼睛仍然紧紧闭着，直到听到另一个响亮的水花声，他才惊讶地停下脚步，猛地睁开眼睛。
Junhee was gone and the only evidence of his recent presence were circular waves on the water at the spot he had still been standing in, only some seconds ago. Byeongkwan blinked confused, not able to take his eyes off where Junhee had disappeared.
晙喜消失了，他刚刚站立的地方只有水面上的圆形波纹，证明他曾经在那里。炳官困惑地眨了眨眼睛，无法将视线从晙喜消失的地方移开。
Who dived into ice cold water? Swimming, sure, but diving? The seconds passed and the water surface turned calm again. No waves, no movements, no Junhee.
谁跳进了冰冷的水中？游泳，当然可以，但跳水呢？几秒钟过去了，水面再次变得平静。没有波浪，没有动静，没有晙喜。
The longer Byeongkwan waited for him to appear again, the more nervous he got. Had he simply lost track of time or was Junhee gone for much longer than most humans were able to hold their breaths? Sweat gathered in his palms and he wiped them on his jeans.
炳官等他再次出现的时间越长，他就越紧张。他只是忘记了时间，还是晙喜消失的时间比大多数人能屏住呼吸的时间还要长？汗水在他的手掌中聚集，他把手在牛仔裤上擦了擦。
The sudden fear that something had gone wrong and that Junhee was currently drowning while Byeongkwan just stood by and watched, pushed itself into his mind and his stomach turned itself upside down. Just why had he left his phone at home? He could neither check the time nor call for help. More time passed and the uneasy feeling turned into panic.
突然的恐惧涌上心头，担心晙喜出了什么事，正在溺水，而炳官却只是站在一旁看着，他的胃翻江倒海。他为什么要把手机留在家里呢？他既不能查看时间，也不能呼救。时间一点一点过去，不安的感觉变成了恐慌。
He must have been waiting for at least five minutes now. As far as Byeongkwan knew, the world record of someone holding their breath was 11 minutes… But that person had been a trained professional… Junhee was a normal senior in school!
他现在肯定已经等了至少五分钟了。据炳官所知，世界上有人屏住呼吸的记录是 11 分钟……但那个人是经过训练的专业人士……晙喜只是一个普通的高年级学生！
Before he could really think about it, Byeongkwan’s feet started moving, carrying him over the uneven ground towards the lakeshore where Junhee’s shoes and clothes lay. Hastily Byeongkwan kicked off his own shoes, not bothering to take off his hoodie before he stumbled into the water.
在他还没来得及仔细思考之前，炳官的脚已经开始动了，带着他穿过不平的地面，朝着湖岸边晙喜的鞋子和衣服走去。炳官匆忙地踢掉自己的鞋子，甚至没来得及脱下连帽衫，就跌跌撞撞地冲进了水里。
Byeongkwan had known that it would be cold but that still didn’t prepare him for the pain. It felt like thousands of needles were piercing his skin, draining all warmth from his body and making his limbs go numb. He gasped loudly and for a second, reflexes took over, wanting him to get out of the water again as fast as possible but the fear for Junhee was stronger and as a result Byeongkwan forced himself to move further into the water, towards the spot where Junhee had disappeared.
炳官早就知道会很冷，但这仍然没有让他做好准备去面对这种痛苦。感觉就像成千上万根针刺穿了他的皮肤，抽走了他身体里的所有温暖，让他的四肢变得麻木。他大声喘息了一下，有那么一秒钟，本能占了上风，让他想尽快从水里出来，但对晙喜的恐惧更强烈，结果炳官强迫自己继续向水里走，朝着晙喜消失的地方前进。
“Junhee!” He called, though he didn’t expect an answer. “Junhee! Help!” Nothing, only his own panicked voice echoing over the lake.
“晙喜！”他喊道，虽然他并不指望会有回应。“晙喜！帮帮我！”没有回应，只有他自己惊慌的声音在湖面上回荡。
He was a bit smaller than the other and therefore the water reached higher once he had finally made it to the right spot. By now his entire body was shivering but that didn’t keep him from searchingly running his hands through the water around him. The resistance slowed his movements but even after moving further into the lake, Byeongkwan couldn’t find anything; no limbs, no hair, no Junhee.
他比另一个人矮了一点，因此当他终于到达正确的位置时，水已经淹得更高了。此时他的整个身体都在颤抖，但这并没有阻止他在周围的水中搜寻。他的动作因水的阻力而变慢，但即使他进一步深入湖中，炳官还是找不到任何东西；没有四肢，没有头发，没有晙喜。
“Fuck, fuck, fuck!” He exclaimed, running his hands through his hair while he turned around in a circle.
“该死，该死，该死！”他喊道，一边用手抓着头发，一边在原地转圈。
Then, finally giving into his desperation, he took a deep breath and ducked his head into the cold water. While most of his body had already gotten used to the cold, his head once again felt like it was getting pierced by needles. It was just like taking a too big bite of a popsicle, whereupon one’s brain seemed to just freeze.
然后，终于屈服于他的绝望，他深吸一口气，把头埋进了冰冷的水中。虽然他的大部分身体已经习惯了寒冷，但他的头再次感觉像是被针刺一样。这就像咬了一大口冰棒，脑子似乎都冻住了。
It took all of Byeongkwan’s willpower to not immediately get his head out of the water again. It hurt and his body turned numb with every second but Junhee was still somewhere in there, perhaps already as good as dead. Byeongkwan forced his eyes to open, but it was already too dark to see much. All he could do was to dive deeper into the lake, ignoring all his fears that were knocking at the back of his mind. He prayed that he would eventually stumble upon Junhee’s body and that, when he finally did, the other would still be alive...
炳官用尽了全身的意志力才没有立刻把头从水里抬起来。每一秒钟都很痛，他的身体也逐渐麻木，但晙喜还在某个地方，也许已经奄奄一息了。炳官强迫自己睁开眼睛，但已经太黑了，什么也看不清。他所能做的就是潜得更深，忽略脑海中所有的恐惧。他祈祷自己最终能找到晙喜的身体，并且当他终于找到时，晙喜还活着……
He tried again and again but it never took long, before Byeongkwan had to resurface to gasp for air. He didn’t know how much time had passed but slowly his desperation was turning into hopelessness. The chances to find Junhee alive became smaller and smaller with every second and Byeongkwan himself slowly felt how his own body turned tired and his limbs heavier. His head, too, was fuzzy by now and grasping clear thoughts became a nearly impossible task. Byeongkwan knew that if he didn’t leave the water now, he might never make it out alive again.
他一次又一次地尝试，但没过多久，炳官就不得不浮出水面喘气。他不知道时间过去了多久，但他的绝望慢慢变成了无望。找到晙喜活着的机会随着每一秒的流逝变得越来越小，而炳官自己也慢慢感觉到自己的身体变得疲惫，四肢越来越沉重。他的头脑现在也变得模糊，抓住清晰的思绪几乎成了一项不可能的任务。炳官知道，如果他现在不离开水面，他可能再也无法活着出来了。
“Just… one… last time...” He whispered to himself, his voice trembling because of the cold. One last try and then he would get out and run to find help. Byeongkwan took a shaking breath and another one, before dipping his head under water again.
“就……最后……一次……”他对自己低声说，声音因为寒冷而颤抖。最后一次尝试，然后他就会出去寻找帮助。炳官颤抖地吸了一口气，又吸了一口气，然后再次把头浸入水中。
Darkness and cold surrounded him… No Junhee. Instead it felt impossible to move, his limbs weighing too much. Byeongkwan knew that he needed to move, that the surface wasn’t far but he no longer was sure in which direction the surface was even located. He felt dizzy and everything around him was spinning while his lungs were burning in need of air.
黑暗和寒冷包围了他……没有晙喜。相反，他觉得自己无法动弹，四肢沉重得难以移动。炳官知道他需要移动，知道水面并不远，但他不再确定水面到底在哪个方向。他感到头晕目眩，周围的一切都在旋转，而他的肺部因缺氧而灼烧。
Sleep… Byeongkwan wanted to just rest for a second and he closed his eyes, trying to ignore the pain in his chest. Everything in him urged him to take a breath but, though he felt tired and wanted to give in, there was a small part in him that kept him from doing so. However, that part got weaker and weaker...
睡觉……炳官只想休息一下，他闭上眼睛，试图忽略胸口的疼痛。他的身体里所有的感觉都在催促他呼吸，但尽管他感到疲倦并想要屈服，内心深处却有一个小小的部分阻止他这样做。然而，那部分越来越弱……
Suddenly there was something grabbing his arm, Byeongkwan’s numb brain only vaguely noticing the touch, before arms wrapped themselves around his chest and pulled him through the water. Soon, Byeongkwan’s head was breaking through the surface and he gasped, hungrily breathing in the cool air while his lungs were still aching.
突然有什么东西抓住了他的手臂，炳官麻木的大脑只是模糊地感觉到触碰，然后手臂环绕在他的胸前，把他拉过水面。不久，炳官的头冲破了水面，他喘着气，贪婪地吸入凉爽的空气，而他的肺仍在疼痛。
Slowly, it taking him nearly all his remaining strength, he opened his eyes. He couldn’t see who was pulling him through the water and instead his blurry vision focused on the last bit of light in the distance. The sunset was nearly over, darkness taking its place. The next thing he noticed was his body getting dragged over stones until his back finally collided with hard but dry earth.
慢慢地，几乎用尽了他所有剩余的力气，他睁开了眼睛。他看不清是谁在拉他穿过水面，模糊的视线反而集中在远处最后一丝光亮上。夕阳几乎已经落下，黑暗取而代之。接着他注意到自己的身体被拖过石头，直到他的背部终于撞上了坚硬但干燥的地面。
“Shit, shit, shit!” A voice cursed and Byeongkwan found it to sound very familiar but his brain was still too dizzy to pair it with a face. Meanwhile, his saviour left his side, only to return, a couple of seconds later. Byeongkwan fought against the tiredness, blinking to clear his vision before he summoned up all the strength left in him to slightly move his head. He came face to face with blue, wet hair and wide, panicked eyes. He knew this face… He just couldn’t remember why or where from.
“糟了，糟了，糟了！”一个声音在咒骂，炳官觉得这个声音非常熟悉，但他的脑袋还是太晕了，无法将它与一张脸对上号。与此同时，他的救命恩人离开了他的身边，只是几秒钟后又回来了。炳官努力对抗着疲倦，眨了眨眼睛以清晰视线，然后召集起他剩下的所有力量，稍微动了动头。他面对着一头蓝色的湿发和一双惊慌失措的眼睛。他认识这张脸……只是记不起为什么或从哪里认识的。
“Byeongkwan?” The boy whispered, his voice shaking. “I have… I have to take off your wet clothes… I’m sorry, it’s the only way.” Byeongkwan proceeded with blinking at him. Who was this guy? He was so occupied with trying to awaken his sleeping brain, that he didn’t complain when the other’s fingers began ghosting over his body, moving his limbs so that he could take off his wet, icy clothes.
“炳官？”男孩低声说道，声音颤抖。“我得……我得脱掉你的湿衣服……对不起，这是唯一的办法。”炳官眨了眨眼看着他。这是谁？他忙着试图唤醒自己昏昏欲睡的大脑，以至于当对方的手指开始在他身上游走，移动他的四肢以脱掉他湿冷的衣服时，他也没有抱怨。
Who was he...? Slowly, very slowly Byeongkwan’s brain started working again. In the meantime, the boy helped him to sit up, rubbing Byeongkwan’s body dry with a towel before putting on a new shirt and pair of jeans.
他是谁……？慢慢地，非常慢地，炳官的大脑开始重新运转。与此同时，那个男孩帮他坐起来，用毛巾擦干炳官的身体，然后给他穿上了一件新衬衫和一条牛仔裤。
“What the hell were you doing out there?” He asked but all Byeongkwan could do was stare at him. He was stunning, though it was difficult to make out his face in the approaching darkness. In that moment, it finally hit him and his eyes widened.
“你到底在外面干什么？”他问道，但炳官只能盯着他看。他太迷人了，尽管在渐渐逼近的黑暗中很难看清他的脸。就在那一刻，炳官终于意识到了什么，眼睛睁得大大的。
“Junhee?” He croaked and the other seemed relieved that Byeongkwan had been able to recognize him. He dried his own body off with the same towel he had used for Byeongkwan, before sitting down on it and stretching his arms out towards him. Byeongkwan stared at them in confusion, only now that the feeling returned to his limbs, noticing that his body was still trembling heavily.
“晙喜？”他沙哑地说，另一个人似乎松了一口气，因为炳官能够认出他了。他用同一条毛巾擦干了自己的身体，然后坐在毛巾上，向炳官伸出双臂。炳官困惑地盯着他们，直到感觉回到四肢，才注意到自己的身体仍在剧烈颤抖。
“Come here.” Junhee ordered and when Byeongkwan didn’t move, he leaned forward, wrapping his arms around his body and pulling him against his chest.
“过来。”晙喜命令道，当炳官没有动时，他向前倾身，双臂环绕住他的身体，把他拉到自己的胸前。
“What… what are you doing?” Byeongkwan wanted to know, his voice still sounding weak. Now that his brain was working better again, he realised just what kind of situation he was in. Not only had he nearly died, but the guy he had wanted to save from drowning, had ended up saving him instead, then removed and replaced all his clothes and was now cuddling with him somewhere in the darkness. Not to forget the most important fact; said guy was nobody else than Park Junhee and he wasn’t wearing anything besides bathing trunks.
“你……你在做什么？”炳官想知道，他的声音依然显得虚弱。现在他的脑子又开始正常运转了，他意识到自己身处什么样的境地。不仅他差点死掉，而且他想要救的那个快要溺水的人，反而救了他，然后脱掉并换上了他的所有衣服，现在在黑暗中和他依偎在一起。别忘了最重要的一点；那个人不是别人，正是朴晙喜，而且他除了泳裤什么都没穿。
Yet, despite all that, Byeongkwan couldn’t bring himself to put distance between them. He didn’t know how it was possible but although Junhee must have spent even more time in the cold water than him and wasn’t wearing any dry clothes, his body still felt as warm as if he had just left his house, a couple of seconds ago. It helped Byeongkwan to stop trembling and warming up and, not being able to stop himself, he snuggled closer to the other, a content sigh escaping his mouth.
尽管如此，炳官还是无法让自己与他们保持距离。他不知道这怎么可能，但尽管晙喜在冰冷的水中待的时间比他还长，而且没有穿任何干衣服，他的身体仍然感觉像是刚刚离开家一样温暖。这帮助炳官停止了颤抖并开始暖和起来，他无法控制自己，便靠近了对方，满足地叹了口气。
They stayed like this for a while, Byeongkwan once again losing track of time, while Junhee carefully rubbed his shoulders and back to speed up the warming process.
他们这样待了一会儿，炳官再次失去了时间的概念，而晙喜则小心翼翼地揉着他的肩膀和背部，加快了暖身的过程。
“Can you answer me one question?” He eventually asked and Byeongkwan hummed sleepily. “Why did you do that? Why did you decide to go for a swim in your clothes at the beginning of winter? Don’t you know how dangerous that is for humans?” Junhee sounded upset and his anger chased away Byeongkwan’s sleepiness. He frowned, light anger boiling in his stomach now, too.
“你能回答我一个问题吗？”他最终问道，炳官昏昏欲睡地哼了一声。“你为什么要那样做？为什么在冬天刚开始的时候决定穿着衣服去游泳？你不知道这对人类来说有多危险吗？”晙喜听起来很生气，他的愤怒驱散了炳官的困意。他皱起眉头，轻微的愤怒也在他的胃里翻腾。
“Swimming? Do you seriously think I did this for fun? I only went in there because I thought you drowned or something! I waited for so long but you didn’t resurface!” Junhee blinked at him.
“游泳？你真的认为我这是在玩乐吗？我进去只是因为我以为你溺水了或者出了什么事！我等了那么久，但你一直没有浮上来！”晙喜眨了眨眼看着他。
“You… You saw me? And you went in to save me?” Byeongkwan huffed, crossing his arms in front of his chest.
“你……你看到我了？然后你进去救我？”炳官喘着气，双臂交叉在胸前。
“Yes… I would have never done it otherwise! I’m not stupid!”
“是的……否则我绝不会这么做！我又不傻！”
“Then why didn’t you call for help instead of getting yourself into danger like that?” Byeongkwan’s mouth dropped open. He couldn’t believe how ungrateful Junhee acted. After all, Byeongkwan had nearly given his own life to save his.
“那你为什么不求助，而是让自己陷入那样的危险呢？”炳官张大了嘴巴。他简直不敢相信晙喜竟然如此不领情。毕竟，炳官几乎是用自己的生命来救他的。
“I left my phone at home! I was scared you would die, for god’s sake! What would you have done if you had been in my position, huh?” That shut Junhee up who bit on his lower lip.
“我把手机落在家里了！天哪，我真怕你会出事！如果你在我的位置上，你会怎么做，嗯？”这让晙喜闭上了嘴，他咬住了下唇。
“I would have gone into the water, too...” He eventually whispered, Byeongkwan thanking their quiet surroundings that he even heard it.
“我也会下水的……”他最终低声说道，炳官感谢周围的安静环境让他听到了这句话。
“See...” They looked at each other, the only noises being the small waves hitting the shore and Byeongkwan’s heartbeat drumming in his ears. Right now, he wasn’t so sure if he really didn’t have a crush on Park Junhee. Being close to him like this made his body tingle in ways that he could no longer entirely blame on the cold.
“看...” 他们互相对视，唯一的声音是小浪拍打海岸的声音和炳官耳边的心跳声。此刻，他不太确定自己是否真的没有暗恋朴晙喜。像这样靠近他，让他的身体感到一种无法完全归咎于寒冷的刺痛感。
Soft fingers found their way to his cheek, stroking some wet hair out of his face with gentle touches. A surprised gasp escaped Byeongkwan’s lips and he quickly pressed them together to make sure it wouldn’t happen again. God, was he glad that it was too dark to make out his burning cheeks. Or at least that was what he hoped for until he remembered that yes, Junhee probably couldn’t see them but he could still very much feel them. As if to confirm his thought, he spoke up, amusement resonating in his voice,
柔软的手指摸到了他的脸颊，轻轻地把一些湿发从他的脸上拨开。炳官惊讶地喘了一口气，迅速抿紧嘴唇，确保这种情况不会再次发生。天啊，他真庆幸现在太黑了，看不出他烧红的脸颊。至少他是这么希望的，直到他记起，没错，晙喜可能看不见，但他仍然能感觉到。仿佛为了确认他的想法，晙喜开口了，声音中带着一丝愉悦。
“Seems like you are warm enough now. We should better get you home. Your mother is probably worried and you need warmer clothes and a blanket.” Byeongkwan hummed in agreement, not trusting his voice while he unwillingly got some distance between them. Junhee removed his hands, too, and Byeongkwan immediately missed his warmth, the cold night air making him shiver again.
“看来你现在已经暖和了。我们最好送你回家。你妈妈可能会担心，你也需要更暖和的衣服和毯子。”炳官哼了一声表示同意，不太相信自己的声音，同时不情愿地与他们拉开了一些距离。晙喜也把手移开了，炳官立刻想念他的温暖，寒冷的夜风让他再次颤抖。
“Come...” Junhee said, helping him up and then wrapping an arm around his shoulder to support him while they walked towards the path, collecting Byeongkwan’s shoes and bag on the way. “We should probably go to my mom’s store… It’s the closest and she can call your mother to pick you up.”
“来吧……”晙喜说着，扶起他，然后用一只手臂搂住他的肩膀支撑着他，一边走向小路，一边捡起炳官的鞋子和包。“我们应该去我妈妈的店……那是最近的地方，她可以打电话给你妈妈来接你。”
Byeongkwan nodded weakly, heavily leaning on Junhee. He felt guilty about it but at the same time, walking had never felt this exhausting before.
炳官虚弱地点了点头，沉重地靠在晙喜身上。他对此感到内疚，但同时，走路从未如此令人疲惫。
They had nearly reached Mrs. Park’s store, when he remembered an important question that he had wanted to ask,
他们快到朴女士的店时，他突然想起了一个一直想问的重要问题，
“Junhee? How did you manage to hold your breath for so long under water? Or did I simply not see you? I’m pretty sure I would have seen you!” Junhee next to him stiffened and he didn’t reply until they were standing right in front of his mother’s store so that Byeongkwan already thought he wouldn’t get an answer.
“晙喜？你是怎么在水下憋气这么久的？还是我根本没看到你？我很确定我会看到你的！”晙喜在他旁边僵住了，直到他们站在他母亲的店前，他才回答，所以炳官已经以为他不会得到答案了。
“I… I might tell you about it soon… But not today. You are too exhausted today.” Byeongkwan wanted to reply that he wasn’t tired and Junhee should just tell him now, but when he opened his mouth, the only thing he got out was a loud yawn.
“我……我可能很快会告诉你……但不是今天。你今天太累了。”炳官想要回答说他并不累，晙喜应该现在就告诉他，但当他张开嘴时，唯一发出的却是一个响亮的哈欠。
“Okay...” He gave in hesitantly, “But I won’t forget about it! I’ll definitely remind you!” That made Junhee chuckle and the sound warmed him better than any dry clothes ever could.
“好吧……”他犹豫地妥协了，“但我不会忘记的！我一定会提醒你的！”这让晙喜笑了起来，那笑声比任何干衣服都更能温暖他。
“I didn’t expect you not to… Not you, Byeongkwan.”
“我没想到你会这样……不是你，炳官。”
Byeongkwan thought he wouldn’t be able to sleep that night but the incident had exhausted him enough to knock him out as soon as his head hit his pillow.
炳官以为那晚他会睡不着，但那件事已经让他筋疲力尽，以至于他的头一碰到枕头就睡着了。